I HATE my breast implants
I HATE my breast implants, had them done at 19 and now 21. It is the biggest regret of my life, I want them removed ASAP. The implants have been a huge secret from all but select close friends, my mum and my ex bf. I feel like this 'secret' is a huge burden, I would be mortified if I were teased/talked about. My ex bf also didnt like them and Im pretty sure it influenced our break up (I think he was a bit embarrassed to have a gf 'with a boob job' even though he never said that in so many words an almost no one knows). I worry terribly about what judgement a new partner would have and if he would keep my secret and so it has effected me having relationships. I shy away from the touch of potential lovers due to this fear. I think that boob jobs are actually a huge turn off to the right kind of man.
I have previously suffered self esteem issues and sought after 'being perfect'. This boob job has given me the wake up call to see that we are what we are and something as shallow as bigger boobs is NEVER going to make us happy in the long run. Ive no idea why I thought it would. Its sad that some of us have to go through this to realize this :( but I have only myself to blame.
I hope to god when I get them out I will not be disfigured! But I know I would rather have these foreign bodies out and live with the scars. My advice is PLEASE DONT GET THEM DONE, take a closer look at what your actually looking for/feeling first because bigger boobs probably isnt truly it!