I am SO scared, SO sick of surgeries, and SO conflicted as to what to do
I would appreciate any support from women who have been through this. I am 52 years old, and had Saline Implants done in 2001. The following year, I had a larger sized implant put in, because I was SO small breasted (32a or less- the smallest a woman can possibly be,..) that there wasn't enough skin to even put much of an implant in. The second bilateral augmentation I was happy with,.. at least now I had a 'shape.' Well, 6 years later, the right implant ruptured. Then, 3 years after I had the right implant replaced, the left one went. I had that one replaced. Then, 4 years later, (last month,) the right implant went, again. Now, I am awaiting my surgery, which is scheduled for September 18th. The surgeon is telling me I should go to Silicone Gel, but I am not convinced of the safety, even tho the FDA has allowed them back onto the market. I am SO scared, SO sick of surgeries, and SO conflicted as to what to do. I have pretty much decided NOT to have two new Silicone Gel ones put in, even tho the Mfg is offering a 'discount' on the total price. So now my choice is either to just have them replace the right implant with another Saline to match the left side that I had replaced last June,.. ( and hope to get another 4 years or so out of both..?) or to just have them both explanted and be done and OVER with these darn surgeries. The financial strain on my husband and I has been horrible, and I know that the best decision financially for us, would be to just, finally, have them both taken out. I am concerned as to what on earth I will look like, and I am concerned about depression. But then again, what's more important- how I look and feel about my body,.. or my health and our financial stability? I have only a few more days to decide. Has anyone been through explantation? How do your breasts look afterwords? Is it horrible? Or do you get used to it over time. I hate padded bras,.. but I guess I'll have to go back to those and higher collared shirts, and be a little self concious... but it's not the worst thing in the world either, people certainly go through worse things. Still... I'll miss the confidence and positive body image the implants gave me. thank you for any advice, or shared experiences!